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thinking of a song... stuck in my head...

puts a person deep in thought of what they want... i guess.. hhmmm sighh...


She Will Be Loved...Maroon 5


Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Posted by :  gizzy  on 8/28/2004 02:00:00 AM                 (0) comments

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hhmm.. points to ponder...

half a day is gone... wonder what it would've been like if i woke up at 8...instead of 12?? hmmm probably would've gotten out of bed, went to buy and eat breakfast. watched a dvd or 2... then only it will end up being 12noon. ahhhh so much for excitement in life. wat the hell.....
anyway, su-ren just landed in Los Angeles(LAX) about 2 hrs ago. she's waiting for the next flight out of there to head back to Kalamazoo. hhhmmmm hope she's doing fine. hope the immigration people dont give her shit.
hhmmm weather pretty sucky today huh... sun is up, hot as hell... sighh.. i guess it's whole day at home for me...heehee.... woohooooo

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Posted by :  gizzy  on 8/26/2004 12:58:00 PM                 (0) comments

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...

What does everyone think of life? do we take it for granted? "ahhh..there's always tomorow..." thats the normal line people usually say. procrastination has become the norm in our normal everyday life. thinking that tomorow will always come. the past week was a depressing one. exactly a week ago, the Kang family had lost a member. a very valuable and important member. my Grandfather passed away after a head injury due to a fall. sighh... Penang will never be the same again. no more visits to the house, no more fresh coconuts from the tree behind the house, no more happy smiley greeting from my grandfather. sighhhhh... have never cried so much in such a long time. not sobbing cry tho. at least he didnt suffer, that's what everybody kept saying. which is true in a way. we were never really close. but i'd like to think i was the closest of the 3 of us(my bro,sis,me). i was the only one that actually went to penang alone;without the family. and of course visiting my grandfather. i actually sat down and talked to him; nothing personal or watsoever. but it was still a conversation. The thing with my grandfather was that he was always happy when we went down. when we were young, we'd always go there to play in the beach; run around, swimming at times. my sister even got chased around by the old dog many times. it was always her only. dont know why.
all of that is gone now. sighhhh. we were supposed to go up to penang this week for my sister and her husband to pay their respects to grandfather. he couldnt make it for their wedding. but it is too late.
anyway, lotsa new stuff came about this trip to Penang. new family members were acknowledged, old misunderstandings cleared, new relations found and lots more. some history about the family was realised by me too. stories of the past were told. it's like a family reunion. i guess what they say is true; Reunions usually happen best at weddings and Funerals. which is actually quite sad. but true... well, he had a great life. all his kids turned out right. all Their kids turned out alright. well, i'm basically the LAST one of the generation that is still left hanging around. ahhh...


Grandfather, you will always live on in our thoughts. May you Rest In Peace. You are a success altogether. You are and will be missed by all of us.

Posted by :  gizzy  on 8/26/2004 12:45:00 AM                 (0) comments

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*yawnnn* tiring week...

*yawn again* ahhhh such a long long tiring week last week. my brother came back from the UK on Wednesday. Su-Ren came back from melbourne Thursday. 2nd Uncle n family came from Sydney o Friday. Big Uncle came from s'pore on Saturday. whole big family reunion. and all for the love of my older sister. now, she has a really little family of her own. she just wed 3 days ago on Sunday. hhmmm well, i guess i'm happy for her. happy rest of her life. *tear*
nuf of that... hhmmm... apart from her wedding, i had to settle all the relatives and bring them around. be the driver for the week, help organize what to do and where to go. aihhh but am not really complainin. after all, i've got not much better to do. hhhmmmm it was nice to see the whole family all together again. my dad's family i mean. i think it has been almost 10 yrs since all the 3 brothers(dad n uncles) reunited and drank beer together. haha.. this time got 2 more additions to the beer drinking... me and my brother.


well, it'll be 2 more days till my 2nd uncle and his family leave back for Sydney and 3 more days til my brother leave for the UK. my sister left for HongKong for their honeymoon this morning. hhhmmm i guess it's just 3 more days for my 'torturing' hahaha... what a way to put it.


hhmmm... tomorow's another long day. leaving for Melaka for a day-trip at about 9am. taking 2 cars there... my dad's and my mom's. my dad said to take mom's car coz it's bigger and 'safer'??? hhmm WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY WIRA?!?!?!!?!? hehhehe... goin eat satay and prob some chicken rice ball. hahah... su-ren will be comin too. which is good. but she doesnt like to eat satay. hhmmm guess maybe i'll try and persuade everybody to really go eat chicken rice ball. heehee. ah well....
off to bed... a bit of a boring post. havent have enuf sleep in 2 weeks. sleepin like 4-5 hrs a nite. aihh... used to it anyway. they dun call me panda for n'tin huh?? DAMMIT... :P

Posted by :  gizzy  on 8/12/2004 12:25:00 AM                 (0) comments

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hhmm pleasure??torture??treasure?!?!? AHHHH

hhmmm... hour by hour, day by day... my sister's wedding grows nearer. aihh... stress. hahah... ahhh well, hope she's happy. my older brother just came back today. he keeps lansiING to me about his NEW car.... sighhh Mazda RX-8. he just got it a couple of days back in the UK. sighhhh... but then, i cant lansi him back with my Turbo. sighh.. he doesnt exactly know about it. oh well... it's my own fault iguess... but it's a nice car.. he got a black one... as he says.. it has 18" rims.. hhmm so do i, heated seats, suicide doors, aihh lots lots more... \lets not get there...
anyway, su-ren will be back tomorow night.. :) have only another 2 weeks to spend with her before she heads back to the US. as i wont be leavin with her. aih... and theres my sister's wedding thing and relatives arond for the next whole week. damn!!!! sighh.. anyway, here's a little something i wrote.... for my little su-ren...


missing you,
it's like the sky without stars,
like the moon without it's shine,
like the beach without it's breeze,
like the sea without its fishes.


missing you,
its like a hole that never ends,
like a sound that never stops,
like sigh that never ends,
like a wound that never heals,


missing you,
it hurts like nothing else,
it searches for something but never gets,
it grips you hard,
it makes you wanna stop breathing.


missing you,
is not an option,
is but a torture,
it builds up pressure,
to make each moment a treasure.

......every word is true... from the heart... :)

Posted by :  gizzy  on 8/05/2004 07:28:00 AM                 (0) comments

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genting??? sighhh

the recent trip to Genting ended with dissapointments and a sense of loss. the Rave was rather good, and got to meet some certain people whom have not met in ages. and managed to stuff a few of us with lotsa alcohol. Got a room in Amber Court (dodgy,cheap and possibly haunted place). brought up 1 and 3/4 bottles of chivas, 2 cases of beer(tiger, Heineken) with the intention to finish EVERYTHING?! hhmmm well, guess we have more to finish in the NEXT trip. Was supposed to go back early before the rave ended to drink with some of the fellows. namely, Hon Hing,Aaron,Ahwah,AnnSeng and maybe even Cris(fat chance). but ended up staying til the end which wasnt late at all!!!! about 4am. reached home about 7 to discover that EVERYBODY was sleepin. that's a pity.
Anyway, woke up to checkout only to find out that Hon Hing's car was broken into. dont feel like ripping off Ivan's pics. so pics of it can be found there. and the stupid thing is, only 2 things were stolen... mine and Hon Hing's Oakleys. sighhh.. mine was Oakley Romeo and his was Oakley Straight Jacket.sighhh... the weird thing is that both of ours were hidden; mine was in the glove compartment while his was under some cloth in the middle console. i guess the STUPID fuckhead wanted to steal the stereo or sometin then figured its an old one... sighhh... here it is... let us solemnly pray.. that the motherfucker loses his nose or ears or both so he cant ever wear them.




sighh... most expensive Genting trip i've ever been to man. some more only 1 night. sighhhhh... oh well, time to get a new pair i guess... and i didnt bring back my other oakleys from the US. DAMMNNNNN today the sun was blinding my eyes. hahaha..
here are some pics of the Genting Rave...








Chilllll.....

Posted by :  gizzy  on 8/04/2004 03:57:00 PM                 (0) comments

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