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Love's just a tragedy...

Maybe it was a bad idea to meet up with Eric today. it's been more than 2 years since we last met n actualy had a nice chat. i guess it all started by me telling him what a loser i was today. how i wished i didnt Froze and actually talked to the girl at the malfunctioned ticket machine at 1 utama. it only accepted coins. damnnn. all i remember now is she kept smiling and i was like...shit shit say something say something MORE!!! we spoke like wat??? 5 words to each other? there was just something about her that attracted me. and made me freeze. as if i'm a damn good pick-upER. haha. ANYWAYYY, i didnt use to be like this. i could just strike up a conversation. damn. sighhh i can only remember half of what she looks like now. but i'll NEVER forget that smile. sighh...
ANYWAYYYYY, Eric was like laughin his ass off. til like 5 mins later, he was ordering another pair of Tigers. then he started his EMO shit. luckily none of us broke into tears. now that'd be REALLY gay. haha. Is it true that we always compare our significant other to the one we put the most effort in? for most of us, our FIRST love? for me, my 1st love definitely wasn't my 1st Girlfriend. but hey, that's just me. how sucky that is. to think about it. i know i DO constantly thinkg of HER. but is it really worth it? when longing for something, we only think of the GOOD parts. what about the BAD? i've never had that feeling again after HER. the thought of goin home from classes only to give her a call or to see her. even if i had to lie to my parents, it all seem so worthwhile. i'd buy her a flower everytime i pass by a shop or if they sell flowers at college. i'd pack them so nicely in my bag feeling shy of what my friends will say if they saw me carying it. instead, i had a light bagpack, with my hands full wit my books. haha. ughhhh, now that's all so depressing. that's why all these EMO talks can only be discussed with a good round of alcohol. i think we had only like 3 hrs of EMO talk. went through almost ALL our girls. and the would haves and could haves. i yearned for someone once. sooooo much that when it all hapened, it really seemed too good to be true and i just had to spoil it by finding faults. sighh i guess that's just me. if i had a choice, i'd do it all over again. this time, hopefully without the mistakes. sighhh
Eric had to go home early as he said he had to wake up at 5am or sometin. but i think he was just so heartbroken with his issues. headed to Laundry only to realise i only knew less than a handful of ppl that will be there. anyway, i needed to continue my dose of alcohol. ordered a glass of beer only to realise the waiter brought a jug later on and i was like... arrghhh WAT THE HELL. nvm. it'd prob take another half hr for the change. indeed did i wait like 20 more mins for the beer mugs. fuck that man. warm beer is shit.
supposed to wake at 9 to go swimming in the morning. i really hope i can do so. it's like 2am now. hey, that's 7 hrs. not to forget my nightly dose of Anime. i'd prob go to bed like 4am. haha... oh well....

~off~

Posted by :  gizzy  on 10/20/2006 01:25:00 AM                

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